Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/30/17

Struggling to be grateful today. I feel down and DGAF about anything.

Grateful (or trying to be) for:

* my husband's efforts for our upcoming plans

* a great job that pays me well and takes care of me (despite OCD/ADHD boss)

* that my hand will soon be pain free as the CT surgery incision heals up

* books, books, books

* that I am alive...even if I feel old and decrepit. Many of my h.s./college friends are not.

* sobriety - still kicking it, one day at a time

* for my daughter's independence/resilience, even when I don't like her choices

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/29/17

Grateful today for:

* modern medicine, making my CT release surgery simple and virtually pain free and recovery from it quite rapid

* counseling with Z. - she really does seem to know what she is doing

* recovery, always recovery...the unwavering light to my path

* Amazon Prime - I am abusing the heck out their video perk

* my three lovely Pomeranian ladies...comforting and sweet and challenging

* the courage to stand up for myself and take care of myself, without being an ass

Friday, August 11, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/11/17

Grateful today for:

* rain and cooler temperatures

* friends and their support during difficult times

* writing skills

* sponsees, keeping me sane

* staying on my food plan NO MATTER WHAT

* feeling better mentally than I did earlier this week

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/10/17

Today I am grateful for:

* nerve test on my right hand, in anticipation of treatment of carpal tunnel

* the wherewithal to ignore T. and to not take his bait

* meetings

* my bestie, P.

* every ache and pain - means I'm alive

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/9/17

Grateful for:

* feeling less depressed and out of it today than I was yesterday

* making the decision to take 'off' the 'ring' and put on one of my choice

* refusing to be codependent any longer with T.

* friends like SM, PW, and Matt B - they soothe my soul with their compassion and understanding

* three adorable nap puppies to calm me down

* really, really good books to read lately

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/8/17

Grateful for:

* new affirmations to clear and redirect my thinking

* remaining abstinent, sober, and independent despite great chaos/stress

* sobriety tool kit

* my eyes opened to acknowledge my own very real sanity

* not taking on other's problems/chaos/insanity

* three cuddly dogs to soothe my soul, especially by napping with them

* air conditioning

* my flexible, understanding boss

* AA meetings

Monday, August 7, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/7/17

Today I am grateful for:

* my shoulder/neck is starting to feel a tiny bit better

* prayer/meditation on the back patio this morning with coffee, candle, plant, and sunrise

* a nice evening with T. and D. last night

* a quiet Monday

* milder temperatures

* M. & M. getting to adopt their foster kids on 9/6/17

* a design for living that really works

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/5/17

Today I am grateful:

* that I know that no matter how far I have come, there is more to the journey and my recovery and healing - and I joyfully embrace that knowledge

* for the ability and willingness to write out how I feel and what I am struggling with - the synergy of thoughts and writing bring me new insights, ideas, healing, and depth to my relationship with my Higher Power

* for my inviolate sanctuary/space - my home

* that recovery will always be my first priority. Nothing and no one will get in the way of that. My brief thoughts of drinking or eating to cope with my problems last night reminded me of that.

* that I am not ashamed of and will not apologize for my commitment to claim my God and my 12th step recovery as the most important parts of my life.

Friday, August 4, 2017

Daily gratitude - 8/4/17

Today I am grateful for:

* my friendship with P., however long that lasts

* weird TV shows like "American Gods" - makes me think

* the ALC site - helps me with my abstinence

* T. mowing the lawn yesterday

* T. helping my dad with his irrigation problems

* D.'s decision to buy new tires for the Expedition

* remembering to take my problems to prayer/God instead of addictive behavior

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/3/17

I am humbly grateful for:

* being clean and sober for 13 years...and now food abstinent almost six months

* the rigorous honesty necessary to maintain emotional sobriety

* the desire to be faithful to my partner and not use sex addictively

* the ability to be pleasant and diplomatic at all times, not just when I want something

* the willingness to do whatever is necessary to be sane and sober

* the desire to be of and the opportunities for service to others

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/2/17

So grateful today for:

* rain, whenever or however much we get

* the reclining loveseat, with room for three small dogs to cuddle with me

* the ability to say 'no' and follow through with that 'no'

* more motivation and energy to get 'stuff' done - thanks to BPD and supps

* making my FitBit step goal every day

* a full night sleep and waking up before my alarm

* my daughter's upcoming graduation and wedding (!!!!)

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Daily gratitude 8/1/17

Today, I am grateful for:

* the 'finance' essential oil I've been diffusing the last few days

* the new car - pick up tonight!

* that I remain teachable, not intractable. I learn about myself and the world every day.

* continuing to slowly lose weight on BPD

* L. noticing my weight loss and saying positive things

* a mellow Monday yesterday

* Miss Ditzy - such a joy and a sweetness that I haven't had in a dog in ten years

* baked chicken skins - OMG yum

* books and the library

* the friendship between Dad and D.

* the ability to be grateful, no matter what is going on