Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-29-14

So grateful for:

* rain

* pork rinds

* my new food sponsor, CH

* my step sponsor, LW

* growing plants

* books and bookcases finally at my new house from the old one

* summer winding down

* phone meetings and the joyful, abstinent people on them

Monday, July 28, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-28-14

Some things to be grateful for today:

* Seeing my the pics of my friend, D.'s, recent vacation

* Finally getting my bedroom rearranged - totally new energy flow!

* books, books, books at my house

* repotting three plants that desperately needed it

* sprinkler system

* H.H. mowing and weedeating my lawn - good job, kid!

* sleeping pills for those restless nights

* essential oil diffusers

* recovery meetings - live and phone

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-27-14

Today I am grateful for:

* watching the stars in a hammock on my back porch

* renewed contact with C.H.

* Michelle coming to visit me today unexpectedly!

* the first zucchini from the garden

* listening to music just unpacked that I haven't heard in years

* my bookcases full of books again

* abstinence

* the ambition to finally 'work' on my house

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-26-14

Today I am grateful:

* new ideas and books and pathways to support my abstinence coming to my attention daily

* roast beef and eggs for breakfast

* AH & EH for mowing my lawn each week

* hauling home ten boxes of books and CDs from the ex's house. Some day, that umbilical cord will be completely cut

* the courage to start cleaning out my freezer, which is full of old food and food I will never eat. I'm just going to throw out a few things a day so I'm not overwhelmed by the project. Just cleaning out the door of the freezer yesterday made me feel happy and powerful!

* quiet morning with sleeping in - didn't have to get up early

Friday, July 25, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-25-14

Today I am grateful for:

* a bark control collar that works on my dog

* the scale keeps moving down

* a digital scale so that I can compulsively watch those 1/10 of a pound come off (or on)

* a new food sponsor in OA who is also a bariatric surgery patient

* GS phone meetings - best food recovery meetings ever!

* my kitchen scale - keeping me honest

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-23-14

Today I am grateful for:

* crochet thread and needles

* the thousands of crochet patterns available free on the Internet

* my daughter communicating with me

* the ex leaving me alone

* the results of daily service work and daily prayer/meditation

* summer

* bbq'ing

* people in recovery who ask me to be of service to them

* whoever my future sponsors might be

Monday, July 21, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-21-14

Today I am grateful for:

* Aerogardens and the seed kits that go in them

* air conditioning

* cream cheese and butter

* hard boiled eggs

* Sunday evenings

* washing machines & dryers

* an automatic sprinkler system

* books that lead me toward enlightenment/Truth

* my youngest sister

* GS phone meetings

* 9 days of abstinence

Friday, July 18, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-18-14

Today I am seriously grateful for:

* It's fucking Friday!!! Woot!

* recovery phone meetings - keeping me sane, thirty minutes at a time

* air conditioning

* my friend, M.B. - I wish I could see her more, but she's living her life...with kids

* boundaries with my ex

* Ningxia Red - helps with my mood and overall sense of well-being

* essential oils

* the idea of sister tattoos (!)

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-17-14

Today I am grateful for:

* waking up alert and in a good mood

* a feeling of well-being pervading my body and mind as addiction/cravings recede

* several days of 'quiet' from the ex

* L.S. and L.W. for coming to the OA meeting last night and listening to me and sharing their stuff

* my job and that my boss isn't here this morning

* smoothly shaved legs

* my groovy new color job on my hair - love my new hair dresser

* feeling 'young' and 'thin' in my body, no matter what size or how old I am - it really is all perception

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-16-14

This should be getting easier, but it seems more difficult today, for some reason.

Today I am grateful for:

* the ex helping me survive financially this last year

* my Kindles

* the Internet

* pumpkin seeds being low carb

* day four clean from sugar

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-15-14

Today I am grateful for:

* my local ACA group

* that I might be finally, legally single soon

* eggs

* waking up with a sense of well being instead of hung-over or sick

* my friend, P.W. - always so balanced and thoughtful!

* the feeling my body has when I come home in the evening and take the bra off!

* essential oils

Monday, July 14, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-14-14

Today I am grateful for:

* my job

* lots and lots of recovery meetings by phone

* day two of food abstinence

* overcast skies

* Jasmine's book about her grandma

* waking up feeling like a human instead of a ravening monster

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-13-14

Today I am grateful for:

* Young Living's Slique products

* Willingness to attempt food abstinence once again

* A sponsor in OA that gets my s**t

* Water

* Abstinent food

* The computer and the Internet, sources of support and inspiration

* Fish tank filters

* a very quiet morning

* my local AA group

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-12-14

Today, I am grateful that:

* the ex is out of town for a few days

* weekends

* an afternoon nap

* sleeping in

* a phone call from my dad

* the anticipation of seeing an old friend next week

* air conditioning

* everything in my house works

Friday, July 11, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-11-14

Good reading today:

It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.
--Antoine de St. Exupery

A tuning fork is a small tool that is used to tune musical instruments. It is tapped softly and then set down. As it vibrates, it gives off a musical tone. When its vibrations perfectly match the vibrations of the note played on the instrument, the instrument is in tune. When the note matches the tuning fork, this can be both felt and heard.

Our hearts work like a tuning fork. When the heart feels completely in tune with a decision or thought or action in our lives, then we know it is the right one for us. We can actually feel the harmony inside our bodies.

Sometimes what we know deep in our hearts gets clouded over by doubts and questions and other people's opinions and judgments. We need to clear away such clouds and listen to our hearts, for our hearts carry the wisdom of God.

Am I in tune with my heart today?

Today, I am grateful for:

1. The ability to say 'no', especially things/people/events that do not enhance my serenity.

2. A clean, quiet bed to sleep in by myself.

3. Dating standards

4. Being more 'in tune' with myself and my Inner Children

5. People in recovery to be of service to

6. A.H. - for her friendship and her recovery showing me new directions to go in my own recovery.

7. An automatic sprinkler system

8. Magazines, especially ones about writing and cooking.

9. Air conditioning

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-10-14

Saw this on FB - awesome stuff:

Wear gratitude like a cloak and 
it will feed every corner of your life. 
~ Rumi

Today I'm grateful for:

* people who come to the OA meeting I am hosting weekly at my home

* being single

* all the counselors and sponsors and mentors who have listened to me over the years

* my cute little dog, even more cute after being groomed - she looks like a puppy. Evokes an 'awwwww' response in me.

* spiders that eat bugs

* having breakfast with the guys at work once a week

* the guys at work - they are so damn awesome to work with and no drama!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-9-14

Today I am grateful that:

* my daughter is a well-adjusted, resilient adult who is clean/sober and in a monogamous relationship

* the ex is leaving me alone and has stopped pestering to get back together

* L. came through her surgery safely and seemingly without cancer

* my friend A. came to my home last night to help me with the grand-niece/nephew crisis

* for the recovery programs that have given me life today: AA, OA, and ACA

* online dating sites - for amusement value if nothing else!

Monday, July 7, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-7-14

I had a miserable weekend, inside my own head.

I had lots of invites to do stuff, but I turned most of them down.

For some reason, I thought it was a better idea to hide out at home.

It's a new week, so here we go.

I am grateful for:

* a nice home to live in

* a very cool, intelligent, laid-back boss

* my youngest sister that I got to see over the weekend - miss her so much!

* my daughter, who took the time to stay in touch with me this weekend, knowing I would be having a hard time with the anniversary

* ACA friends who keep checking in with me to see how *I* am doing

* my goofy soon-to-be bro-in-law, E.L.

* life lessons learned from watching the crap my sisters are going through

* chocolate

* coffee

* chocolate and coffee together

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Daily gratitude 7-2-14

In twelve step recovery groups, I've always been told that if I live in gratitude, it is difficult to be resentful and acting out in addictions.

At times, I've attempted to make gratitude lists and they helped. Immensely.

This blog is my latest effort at living in gratitude.

Today I am grateful for:

1. Sister #6 (I have five of them and we refer to ourselves by birth order i.e. I'm #1) because she seems to still like me and wants to see me this week while she in in town!

2. My job, in a time when so many have no jobs or dislike or feel trapped by the one they have.

3. Black pepper and sea salt rice crackers.

4. Miss Maggie, the resident rescue Pomeranian, for her cute, sweet fluffiness.

5. Wireless routers.

6. Starbucks coffee, esp. for venti iced decaf soy mocha.

7. E. and A., for mowing and weed-eating my yard yesterday.

8. To be alive and healthly, after the devastating illness I endured last year.

9. Oh hey, let's be grateful for Dawn and Sam, the awesome Starbucks's baristas who greet me with sunny faces and dispositions every morning I show up there!